GRRRR.....ugh idk what to think anymore...trying to get over him but all of a sudden he pops back into my dreams two nights in a row...i try and brush it off...set the image to the side...but it doesn't help at all. I wish life wasn't soo complicated....i wish i could keep the good moments living and take the bad away.... just like u could live in a fairy tail...but i guess if we do live in a fairy tail things could become boring...nothing exciting would happen...so in a way bad things can turn to good things....like the four-wheeler wreak for example it made me stronger...inside mentally and physically...haha dad told me now that i know how that pain felt i could beat someone back and not worry about the pain that i've been through worse...hehe. well, anyways...this is long enough for now...i'll write again when i'm bored...

~So, this weekend started out with being at the beef expo. all day friday. Then going to Lizzie's house with Katie that night...working/directing trafic at Spruse Creek Gallery. (for their silent auction thingy) Then Katie went home not feeling to great and I went to lizzie's. We spent two hours in the hot tub talking about everything lately. It was nice considering that I don't get to see her at school execpt lunch and then she's talking with Mallory. Then Saturday morning I went home long enough to pack (again) and get ready to go to Lauren's house. I picked up Debbie and we met lauren at a gas station then Meredith met us there as well. We went and saw the movie Prom Night!!! OMG, it was a great movie. I deff. don't like how it ends. I had a different image of how it should end. Then we bought Juno and went to lauren's house. Ate pizza, talked, txted people and called them. Then we got in her hot tub for a while, then we went and watched Juno...not as good as I thought it was gonna be. It should have ended differently. Then we stayed up till three continuing to txt different people and call some...haha...btw sorry guys. we were deff. out there last night. Had some awesome tea too! =} Then this morning we talked and had fun. Debbie went home then Meredith. I stayed till three. Now I'm home wishing I had my USB cord so I could upload my pics from this weekend...so for now i'm waiting on the girls to get here with it!

~As far as a boyfriend...he has hurt me with my so called "best friend" but i'm over it...cuz i want a guy who doesn't want to change my past, my faults nor my future. I want someone to love me for me and exactly me! Cuz i don't plan on changing for anyone...

~life other then that is great!

~Mountaingurl~

Well, he did it again. broke up for the second time... it hurts like hell...i'm just gonna let go...i have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that by the time marching band gets here he will have found someone else. but i'm gonna let it go, god has done what he wants with me. so if its ment for us to be together durning marching band he'll come back if not i'll get my sorry ass and get outta his life and leave him alone...but just not in the mood to talk much...so i'll just blog when i'm in one of my peppy moods again.

Mountaingurl

I'm so sorry about tonight. i'm gonna call you to talk to you tomorrow...we need to talk without anyone there to screw up what i said. i love you sooo damn much its killin' me ot not have gotten to talk to you tonight!

Spring break deff. wasn't the best, or as much fun as it should have been. But I deff. had some fun times. Monday went and bought a new camera...and spent the day shoppin' with the family. Tuesday we raked leaves when dad got home. Then wed. I spent the mornin' cleaning my room, the bathroom, and the kitchen...pluz we had some chores to do outside then kirstin and I went on a long walk, took millions of pics. lol. had a good time. Thursday pretty much just enjoyed the day. (through this week we worked on kirstin's project) then on friday we couldn't get our printer to work so kirstin and I rode our bikes to papa's house. Spent about an hour or two over there talking to papa and darleen. Then came home and man was it tiring..some of those hills just are there to kill. lol. They went home friday night. So then I went fishing yesterday with dad. that was fun. But aggrvating...there were no bits whatsoever. Well, throught out this I got to talk to my wonderful boyfriend. Somewhat online and then I've gotten to really talk to him friday and today. which was deff. nice.

Now things coming up this week. I'll probably be staying after again this week, getting ready for our FFA thing. Then Friday Ashley and I are going to the collegain's concert...and i know i just spelled that wrong...owell i know what i mean. haha. Anyways, that should be fun...this weekend i have no idea what we're doing...i guess ashley will be staying the weekend since she'll be at the concert all night friday with me...so ya. That's pretty much what has been going on. I'm really tired...my throat is still hurting and I'm hungry. So i think i'll quit writting for now and I'll go get something to eat and take something for this throat. I'll write more when more happens exciting.

Mountaingurl